To Daddi,
I didn't know the message i send to Ray "meant" so much to you. At first i really thought that you're going to tell people about my stuffs. At that point of time, honestly, i regretted telling you about my things, ya, i don't know you . But i think i act like i do, i hope i didn't disappoint you. But i think i just did. when i message you that i was going to tell people about your things, i was seriously jokking, i didn't know what to reply.
I hate you for only a second, i didn't want our friendship to end like this. I want to be close to you again. I don't want to be "disowned" by you. Cause i really treasure you as my Daddi in the family thing. You might not believe anything i say now, but i really hope you believe, because everything i said to Ray was on impulse. I didn't mean it.
I really didn't. You might think that i'm just pretending to be sorry, acting to be sad to get your attention. But everything isn't a lie here. You have to trust me for the last time.
At least for this time.. But i can't blame you for anything, i deserve it right?
I wish Daddi will forgive me soon.. cause Daddi helped me in alot of things, th times when you beat me because i did something to hurt myself, when i wanted to try something that is harmful..
I dun want to regret all i want.. Cause i feel miserable.. I wanted not to care about what you said. But i can't, cause you're important to me too.. Like Mummi, Bigsister, Jiejie, 2nd Sis and Bigbrother? ( I guess you could have one now since you're in good terms with Bigbro. )
I wish everything that has happened, did not happen.
